Writing emails is hard...just so you
know...It's extremely hard to sum up everything...
SOO this week something is wrong with
me and I keep breaking down randomly in lessons and I become a crying
mess for no stinking reason just because I feel the spirit or the
investigator says something so amazing and I think "I’ll never feel this
way again" and my stomach just drops and I feel sick. This last little
stretch of the mission is a lot more of a heartache than I was expecting.
It's going by way too fast. I don't like it.
There were lots of good things that
happened this week.
First of all- The “G” kids “W” and
“A” were baptized. What a miracle after everything we went through with their
family and all the fights between the parents. It’s so amazing to see that our
prayers were answered and the mom's heart was softened. It was a beautiful
baptism and it was fun to go back and visit:)
I think that was my last baptism:(
All of our investigators on date fell completely off track :( Which has been
absolutely heart breaking. We were supposed to have a wedding and baptism this
weekend for this woman we are teaching and she was so excited to get
married and baptized and we had everything all planned and then she called us
the other day and her husband changed his mind and doesn't want to marry
her...They have 3 little children together and have been together since they
were 15. But he doesn't want to "be committed"...I love a lot of
these guys but some of them just make me sick...So now she can't get baptized
because obviously they live together...SUPER FRUSTRATING.
“P” isn't getting baptized either.
Which breaks my heart more than anything. He's probably my favorite
investigator of my whole mission. He's great and has a solid testimony, he's so
fun and outgoing...but lately he's just lost that fire that he had and isn't
even trying to stop smoking anymore and is just all "why me?" and we
can't get him to snap out of it. He’s not keeping any of his commitments and
he's become lazy. He's had so much opposition and he just isn't fighting back
anymore and we are all out of ideas. We’ve tried everything. But
if investigators aren't doing their part we can't do all of it for them.
I wish I could just do it for him and make him snap out of it and just
stop being stupid. JUST STOP SMOKING. I hate agency sometimes. I think we
are going to drop him this week...I hate hate hate dropping...especially when I
love them and they have so much potential...but I think we need to. Dropping is
totally like a break up. But a hundred times worse. Ugh.
But blessings come when we drop
people...like we find new investigators like “E”!!!
LOVE this new gator. He's fantastic.
SOO back when I was in this area over the summer we ran into “E” on the street
and he told us he was interested and wanted to meet with us. We set up like 10
lessons and all fell through and he was never there when he said he would be so
we stopped trying with him...So last week we were visiting someone in his same
apartment complex and that lesson fell through so we were walking around and I
recognized his apartment so we went and knocked it...He was so excited and told
us he really did want to meet with us so we set up another lesson to meet at
the church...He actually came this time! HE'S GOLDEN. It's fun being in this
area so long and seeing what time can do and how some of the people we've tried
almost a year ago are starting to be more prepared now. “E” is so stinking cool
I love him. He's so sincere and is seeking and just has a hunger and thirst to
learn more. He's full of golden questions it's so fun teaching him. When we
taught him the Restoration and we were talking about how we have a prophet on
the earth today he got SO excited and just kept saying, "I didn't know
that? Really?! I didn't know!!" and he kept bringing up how amazing it is
that we have a prophet today! It just strengthened my testimony of how cool is
really is that we have a prophet today. We went to the visitors center/ Temple
last night with him and a few other investigators and members in the ward and
it was really fun. “E” just kept saying how he wants to go into the Temple and
how peaceful he felt. He's just awesome and a breath of fresh air after
everything going wrong with everyone else we are teaching. Heavenly Father's
timing is always perfect he knows when we're bummed and he always places
someone perfectly in our path the same day.
We had a sister's training this week
that was so much fun. We went to the Temple with all 23 sisters in the mission.
The whole time I just kept thinking how badly I want my investigators to go
through the Temple and feel and see and hear the same things and
how much it would change their lives. It gave me motivation to work harder to
get them and recent converts there. It was also fun to see sisters from
old areas and old companions and to catch up in the temple. The rest of the
night was fun with Sister H. She's the best mission president’s wife and always
finds excuses for the sisters to get together. We’re spoiled. She made us
shirts that are funny with a little sister missionary on a bike and it says,
"Many are called but few are ATM (Arizona Tempe Mission) sisters.
SO a couple weeks ago we started
having Family Home Evening with all these single lonely men in the ward/men
that don't have their families here and are lonely and we got them all together
and have started helping them make friends with each other and have better
influences. It has been SO MUCH FUN. I love Monday nights a lot now. We have
like 10 men coming consistently. They all are so different and have different
stories and backgrounds but it's fun to see them all interact and share their
excitement about the gospel since all of them are recent converts of the last
year in the ward. Oh and one of our investigators goes too which is fun. It's
funny because they all love eating and have a passion for Mexican food so it
turns into this giant feast. We tell them they don't have to bring food just a
small snack...but they don't listen. We have a short message and play a game.
The game part has been absolutely hilarious. These guys are not athletic at
all...whatsoever...well except with soccer. We played volleyball one week and
basketball this last week and I was dying laughing. They made me feel like
Michael Jordan and I really really really suck at basketball but they make
basketball look soo hard. They shoot a basketball like you throw a
soccer ball... Funniest game of lighting ever. It's so good to see them
all laughing and having fun though because so many of them have such hard and
depressing lives and are extremely lonely. All week long they all have been
saying they look forward to Family Home Evening now haha.
okay that's pretty much what
happened...
I LOVE YOU.
oh and ummm write more letters!
I'M STILL HERE!
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